I read all the way to chapter 36 and the story was ok. For the most part I understood what the author was trying to convey, but sometimes it was just executed poorly. Below I will go through the small things that I felt took away from the story.
The idea for the story is different compared to the usual isekai with the isekai'd people being akin to a reality series where every aspect of their lives are recorded. The set up makes for some interesting ideas to be explored except the author only explores one side of it through the protagonist with everyone else shown in the manga having no issue with it or having already adapted by the time of introduction to the story. Its a small miss opportunity that may have been explored if more chapters were created.
Meaningful emotional growth: The protagonist is suffering with some trauma and the author does a good job not just glossing over their emotions, its human nature to react in such a way to the overwhelming situation they were thrust into and it was nice that the author didn't just have them "get over it" quickly. But at the same time the author does a poor job making the feelings feel real. I felt more like I was being told this is how I feel so this is why I will do this and that, but I didn't feel as if the protagonist was growing emotionally it just felt like the author was telling me it was happening.
For example I was told Rifreya helped bring happiness because of her kindness, but Alex and Grapeful were kind, respectful and cared about the protagonist wants. Rifreya turned stalker and from the beginning didn't respect a single request the protagonist made because her own feelings mattered more. This makes the emotional growth of the protagonist feel forced (b.c author said so) and not because Rifreya has actually done anything that opened the protagonist heart. I have seen this written better so maybe that is why I found Rifreya to be a weak lifeline for the protagonist.
(Not emotional) Meaningful growth: The protagonist plays it ive for a while when raiding dungeons due to the lack of good gear, which I believe is a realistic thing to do, however as soon as a weapon is received they do well using it. It would have been nice to see the protagonist actually train during the time they spent being ive so that their weapon wielding skills would feel earned, and we the audience could learn some of the limits for his abilities.
World Building: The story falls short in the world building department, sure some things are explained, but the protagonist spams abilities with no cost of energy or concern about mana usage so I can't help but wonder where the limit is and what are the side effects when said limit is reached? They keep talking about spirit s but it is a little hard to understand how someone becomes a and what roles these spirits play in the overall fantasy world. Are people born with an affinity to certain elemental spirits or do they just learn whatever they want? Who can use spirits, is everyone able to learn or is there a prerequisite, there are a lot of questions with the basic information and no answers.
For example: Rifreya can use light spirits and is training as a holy knight. But then someone used a water element, and a group I guess summoned a fire spirit so I don't really understand how special spirit usage is supposed to be.
Overall the story isn't bad, but it isn't really good either, I would have liked to see more chapters, but after the author established Rifreya's role, I am certain I would have dropped it. Rifreya is written to be nice, but I don't like her because she doesn't listen to the protagonist. Chapter 11 and 12 are the reasons I don't like her. Also the way the Author has the protagonist handle such a situation throughout the story is why I don't like her. If a man, women, young girl or young boy says "no I don't want to" then back off, you don't have to give up, but it is a great opportunity to show respect for a persons feelings, something Rifreya sucks at.
Then you get chapter 25 where the protagonist and Rifreya have a really good strategy to handle a dungeon, but Rifreya only cares about what she wants as shown in chapter 11 and 12 and causes unnecessary issues. What makes her so bad is that the author writes all of her actions as being "caring" and "loving" when all she is doing is being selfish. I think if the author at least made the protagonist acknowledge this flaw, even hating that part about her, then I wouldn't find Rifreya so annoying. But no one acknowledges b.c she is cute, and therefore can do no wrong.
